Wednesday, October 5, 2011

................I Am EMPTY

This darknes sorrounds,  I  am drowning.  No  light in  sight,  incased in  these prison  walls.  I  cant get out,  i  scream ,  i  cry, i  beg ,  and plead but nothing.  A down spiral of thought,feras  and emotions overwhelm me.  I cant take it anymore.  The anger is eating  away  at  my  soul  and turning my  heart into  nothing  but a black  viod inside my  chest.  The self  hatred destroys my pride,  my  spirit ,  my life.  Not  being able t  function, to  be norma,  but  what is normal? normal people function, if they  fall they get up  and slap  bandage  o it  and keep  on going. I cant......Icant function.  I  have given  up...... I consume myself in  sleep,  I  eat  away  my pain,  I  hidewithin myself,  and welcome my  self destructive ways. Racing  thoughts torment me constantly. Fear, anxietty, and anger have become my  life.  A once kind hearted person destroyed by  my  own emotions.  I  Am empty. M y  heart  is  cold  and my  soul even  colder.  I  lack compassion,  empathy, and the ability  to  care.  Emptiness is now my  way of life and anymore that  kind of  life is not worth  living.   I  posses no  thought  to  kill myself  just  the thoughts to  die.  Slowly i  eat myself closer and clser to the grave to  think it isnt  fast  enough.  Sometimes i  wonder  what i  have done to  deserve to  feel  this way.  I am  cold,  my  words are eviland my mind is in  shambles.  Each  day i  grow  colder and further away ..............................
I AM EMPTY

No comments:

Post a Comment